so its your birthday today.

and i cried yesterday, yes, i did, even though i know i said i didn't.

i feel like sometimes we drift. and its painful. i don't know if its because of distance, or because we're both busy almost all the time. but it can't be normal, can it? i mean, we only ever meet up at nights because that's the only time when we're free, and when we do meet, we're so tired we don't have the energy to actually communicate. even though its nice, just talking crap with you. but communicating is necessary, if we want to progress, and i want to progress.

so i cried last night, because

i felt like

we have not progressed for a long time.

and i know you're busy, severely. you don't even have time for your own birthday.

but i thought you would have made time, but you didn't

i guess you don't know how to do that.

but i don't want to be angry and hurt anymore.

because even when i'm crying and my heart bursts through my chest,

swimming, in that sea, of sadness, is always hope.

and she is strong.

and i have lost too many things in life that i love.

i don't want to lose you.

so i swim, i don't sink.