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i am suzen. does the universe have a purpose? sometimes i look up in the sky at the sunset and it's so beautiful that it's hard to imagine that something so beautiful might just be a coincidence, that we're all just coincidences.

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lol king kong was so cute today!!!!!!!
i wish he was still a puppy. but oh well, everything's impermanent. even the bad things.

but that includes the good things too.
sighs.

you know sometimes it's just so irritating to think everything changes constantly, all the time. you know, we grow older, we grow taller, we become more mature, we lose our imaginations, we become fatter/thinner etc. etc.

and sometimes things changes to become better but sometimes things change for the worst.

and that really bugs me sometimes. but oh well, if we were happy all the time, we would probably get bored of it and forget how it was when things were bad and then we would not appreciate all the good things that we have. i think that would be a shame.

and you know, if things never change, then things would never change for people that are facing so much difficulties everyday. and that would be really sad.

so, lol, appreciate it when we fall, because it gives us more space to rise!

P.S. i miss the rain.





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so, today, i woke up, feeling a bit like i'm on the wrong side of the bed, or the world.

but, i ignored it. haha.

lol, then i was okay, i ate my breakfast. bread, nothing complicated about that.

THEN, i made a mistake.

i played the piano.

so then it all comes out again, wave after wave after wave after, well, you get the idea.
and i wasn't even playing anything particularly depressing or anything. i was playing scales. okay, maybe it is a bit depressing. lol.

then i played something i'm composing halfway. then something happened. i felt like how i was before everything started. i felt the way i was when everything was simple. and music was just something i loved.

so now i'm not so confused anymore. because i now remember why i loved it again. and by god, the wall will come crashing down no matter what.

lol and if everthing fails, i can just be a scuba diver.



lol of course everything isn't all well again. of course i still feel a bit, well, not so well. but at least i now know maybe all that suffering was to remind me what i really can't live without in this world.

and of couse i'm still a bit depressed. in fact, i'm listening to longwave now. which is like my second most depressing album. but i have a solution!
i'm going to watch tooth fairy in an hour! lol.




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lol haha
ok. randomness.

ok. so, i have 2 favourite quotes that i love.

1. by George Bernard Shaw



There are two tragedies in life. One is not to get your heart's desire. the other is to get it.

lol or something like that.

ok so the reason i like this is because well, i think what he said was so
completely opposite, but when you think of it, it's kinda true.

because well, when you don't get what you want, of course you get sad, like, DUH.

but on the other hand, getting what you want isn't easy, and maybe in working so hard
for it, you abandon, or sacrifice (I like this word better, lol) the things that were important
in life, you know, like family, or love, or just having fun. you know, the simple things. and
those we usually already have when we begin.

lol ok, and

2. from the book by Alexandria Potter (please tell me i got the name right lol)

The past is history and the future is a mystery. But today is a gift. That's why they call it the present.

Well of course i know the author didn't come up with it.
It was just someone saying it to someone else in the book.
But you know when i read that line i instantly smiled.



So love your life!!!!







And if you don't, do something about it. because if i were to die tomorrow,
I would want to have something that people can remember me by.
A good thing.


lol ok i talk too much. i know.

P.S I think I love George Bernard Shaw now. lol. like he said :

you see things; and you say, 'Why?' But i dream things that never were; and i say,
'Why not?'

How can you not love a guy like that?





I came along
I wrote a song for you
and all the things you do
and it was called yellow

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