I'M SORRY.

for neglecting you,

for getting hooked to tumblr and not blogging here anymore.

i'm sorry, you're like my firstborn i shouldn't have left you haha.

ok la sorry for sounding like a psycho talking to a web page.

so....

i feel very disconcerted this few days. like i;m surrounded by people that do not really appreciate like anymore.

WAKE UP.

life is awesome,

yeah, so you don't get the new ipod, so some people don't like you, so you don't really fit in the cool crowd, so some people get to go overseas and you don't, so you're not a size two, so you don't have the hottest boyfriend, so you don't get a very nice car, so you are not really talented in everything,

SO WHAT THE FUCK WHAT?

WAKE THE FUCK UP.

seriously.

do you want to look back to life and find out that you were just wasting your time agonizing over shallow, tiny stuff like this?

do you want to wake up one day and find out that in THE QUEST OF FITTING IN, you have alienated the people that really love you? if one day, you fall sick, you have no more money, or something really bad happened. do you really think the cool people are gonna sell their ipod, or their car, or just spend some time to help you? NO.

seriously. no. the people that are gonna help are the ones that you alienated. they are your family, your best friends, your brothers that you don't talk to anymore, your mother that you fight with everyday, your sister that you take advantage of, your father that you don't talk to unless asking for money. those are the people that are gonna help you, those are the people that you don't like to mix with because they are not cool, they are the people that you take for granted because they are always, always there for you, they are the people that really care for you and nag you. but ts only for your own good.

so why do you hate them so much?

so yeah, i was like that too. but one day, i woke up, and i realise that the real joy in life is not fitting in, not being cool, not getting the new ipod. it's spending time with people that really love you, it's waking up early to do something for the people that loves you back. it's just laughing with them at things that nobody other than them understand. it's having a sister that tells you everything, it's a father that you actually want to tell that you have a boyfriend to, it's a mother that you don't hate. seriously. they love you so, so, much. can't you just love them back? even a little? wake the fuck up. you.

P.S. i just read this and i think its not good enough. haha.

but yeah. now i know what is really important in life. sure, i don't get some things. but these are the material things that you will want to replace one day, the things that are not going to make you happy after a while. the things that make you work your ass off and have no life, no friends, and in the end, you're just going to replace it for some other new model. and the circle starts again.

it's like a disease.

so i'm angry,

so i'm sad,

and when you come back a thing or two will be said.

so i'm jaded,

so i will cry,

but in the end i hope that you'll still make me smile.

-The pissed off song that has no title yet-

-Moi. haha. ha.-