i am sorry i don't have a tagboard cause i know i'll never reply haha.

i am suzen. does the universe have a purpose? sometimes i look up in the sky at the sunset and it's so beautiful that it's hard to imagine that something so beautiful might just be a coincidence, that we're all just coincidences.

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OMG I MISS NAMTSO.

fml. omg i miss tibet too. there's just something so, out of the world and, like special and like whimsical, like you're stepping into a circus about tibet that you just don't wanna leave, like, seriously, i was trying to hold back my tears when we were leaving cause i didn't want my dad to see me sad, but i tell you, if i was on that train alone, i would have been a puddle.

lol okay la i'm being too melodramatic and from my experience melodramatic does not fit in.

oh screw fitting in. you know, i don't know, i felt like when i was there, i became more chinese, like some kind of chinese gene in me had been activated and i now finally understand some of the things about myself that i was confused about. lol gosh i really miss it. so i guess it was quite a meaningful trip? lol. and you know, namtso is a moment. seriously, i was listening to my mp3 there, oh and namtso's a lake lol. so i was listening to my songs and coldplay's the escapist came up, and i don't know, everything just fit just then, like you know, you're totally at peace and you're flowing with the earth and humming along with the electricisity (?) of it? and lol, melodramatic again, but at moments like that, that is the moment in all the moments itself. those are the moments where you truly are yourself and you look in and you see whatever that's inside you so clearly, it's a bit overwhelming, but it's like at that moment, you know exactly who you are, and you know who you are cannot be put into words, i couldn't explain it with words if i wanted too, it's like, a feeling you know, and at that moment, you'll know how special that moment is. and you memorize it, you memorize, what you have inside you, what you feel, how you view the world, and you carry it along with you, and even if that moment has passed, hopefully, you remember how it felt. and you know that you've known yourself more that day.

seriously, it was amazing.


And in the end
We lie awake
And we dream
Of making our escape

And in the end
We lie awake
And we dream
Of making our escape

Ooh...

-Coldplay-

-The Escapist-



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