smile like you mean it

i am sorry i don't have a tagboard cause i know i'll never reply haha.

i am suzen. does the universe have a purpose? sometimes i look up in the sky at the sunset and it's so beautiful that it's hard to imagine that something so beautiful might just be a coincidence, that we're all just coincidences.

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Wednesday, July 25, 2012 @ 4:23 AM

Niceness

Went to jin's workplace today!!!!!
So fun Eve and Debra they all haha.
Eve seems nice I hope we become friends.

And seriously la, you funny and all, but you have a girlfriend. No way i'm gonna do anything about that.

I took the LRT today, forgot how it felt like to sit alone on a moving train. FEELS GOOD!!!! haha cause can think alot when i'm alone on the train. And the sun was setting so KL looked horribly jammed but majestically beautiful. Especially near Bangsar. Such a nice place that Bangsar.

Went steamboat with my friends that day in Kepong. Then we went Desapark. That place is haunted with memories of you man.

But now that I'm single, I feel like I'm becoming my old self again. Which is good. hehe.

-Stardust-

-Artie Shaw-

Thursday, July 19, 2012 @ 8:37 PM

And the wind blows

So yesterday i was in the hostel park playing my guitar.
And it was so nice!
And when i played my shaun breakup song the wind blew. Special moment.

But I think i'm over the worst part of you. I saw you yesterday and I didn't even feel sad.
I think its because since it didn't hurt as much as two years ago, my heart's like 'ahh, peanuts.'

But of course i miss you. As a friend, mostly.
I wish we could fast forward to the part where we become good friends.

So many guys to like! So little time! haha i feel like I'm becoming my old self haha this is bad.

And music, I love you so much, I know I will love you for eternity, to eternity, bypassing eternity. I'm very sure about that.

Silent night, holy night
All is calm, all is bright
Round yon Virgin Mother and Child
Holy Infant so tender and mild
Sleep in heavenly peace
Sleep in heavenly peace

-Silent Night-

-Priscilla Ahn-

p.s. I find her so pretty in her own way=D

Wednesday, July 18, 2012 @ 8:55 AM

BRAVE

Just watched brave! Now i feel like I should appreciate my mother more. But she makes it so hard sometimes. Haih. Such a nice movie though haha and I was crying at one part and they noticed but they didn't laugh at me haha such nice friends I have.

And I did my moral presentation today! Made me feel so good haha cause I feel like it gave me a big step forward in conquering my stage fright. Seriously!! I know I sound very perasan but oh well I might as well write it here to have a pick me up when i'm feeling down in the future. They clapped so loud I couldn't hear myself say thank you! Ngahahahaha so happy. And to think that I used to be so nervous I would shiver and shake on stage. Feels good to set out to conquer something and getting nearer to accomplishing it bit by bit.

And I finally bought new guitar strings! And a music stand to replace the one that was stolen along with the car haha. Damn broke now though I have like 3 bucks for food a day now till the end of the month. BUT MY STOMACH SHALL PERSEVERE!!! Hehe. Demonic laugh.

And the guy who sold me the strings kinda cute haha classic me. Liking every musician I meet.

I had a moment in the cinema. When i wished that you were here. Because it would have been fun. And it would have been nice to cry into your shoulder=(

Why did we end? Sometimes I wonder. But it feels set in my heart that you're not the one. For now. Maybe forever.

So I’ll find another tree

And make the wind my friend

I’ll just sing with the birds

They’ll tell me secrets off the world

But my other honey bee

Stuck where he doesn’t wanna be

Oh my darling honey bee

I’ll come save you

Even if it means

I’ll have to face the queen

-Zee Avi-

-Honey Bee-

Monday, July 16, 2012 @ 7:13 AM

Paint me like one of your french girls

Went paintball yesterday!!!!!

Damn sick now haha and i got 7 bruises in total. Referee was cute though. Quite fun but I'll stick to lasertag next time. Got a bruise on my neck that looks like god himself gave me a lovebite.

On another note. We texted today. I actually feel quite unaffected. But on the other hand if i feel sentimental I'll surely feel sad. But i'm forcing myself not to be sentimental and since i'm so busy it's not that much of an effort, oh well.

Drizzled on the way home today. Looked so pretty whenever I passed under a light ngahaha.

Oh and when i was paintballing I realised that the columns looked like the ones in Coldplay's 'Every teardrop is a waterfall'. Yes no? Made me feel so happy! Now if only they would come to Malaysia. Would die in peace haha.

So you can hurt, hurt me bad

But still I'll raise the flag

- Every Teardrop is a Waterfall -

-Coldplay-

Saturday, July 14, 2012 @ 9:42 AM

sadness everywhere

we have ended, and i am sad.
i miss everything.
i miss you.

but the thought that you might not be the one made me scared. made me tear at the membrane that enveloped us. well i guess a struggled hard enough.

now i've lost you. and it makes me feel like i've lost other stuff too.

but even with this sadness that i carry in my heavy, heavy heart. i hope that you are fine too. and if its meant to be we'll be together, if its not, we'll just find someone better.

you'll always be special in my heart.

love you, and goodbye lamb chop.

love, porkie.

Monday, May 16, 2011 @ 7:28 PM

hi,

so its your birthday today.

and i cried yesterday, yes, i did, even though i know i said i didn't.

i feel like sometimes we drift. and its painful. i don't know if its because of distance, or because we're both busy almost all the time. but it can't be normal, can it? i mean, we only ever meet up at nights because that's the only time when we're free, and when we do meet, we're so tired we don't have the energy to actually communicate. even though its nice, just talking crap with you. but communicating is necessary, if we want to progress, and i want to progress.

so i cried last night, because

i felt like

we have not progressed for a long time.

and i know you're busy, severely. you don't even have time for your own birthday.

but i thought you would have made time, but you didn't

i guess you don't know how to do that.

but i don't want to be angry and hurt anymore.

because even when i'm crying and my heart bursts through my chest,

swimming, in that sea, of sadness, is always hope.

and she is strong.

and i have lost too many things in life that i love.

i don't want to lose you.

so i swim, i don't sink.

What if I got it wrong

And no poem or song

Could put right what I got wrong

Or make you feel I belong

-coldplay-

-what if?-

Tuesday, April 12, 2011 @ 9:37 AM

i melted today

so, today, he said.

but i can't fall asleep without you.

well darling,

i can't fall asleep without you either=)

together can never be close enough for me,

to feel like i am close enough to you,

you'll wear white and i'll wear out the words i love you,

and you're beautiful.

-Train-

~Marry Me~

and somehow, i can't make colours appear in my words anymore

stuffiwastemytimeonhaha yernny=D jin jinXD fun-damentally AWESOME sheena banana:) GMH rocks!
Wednesday, July 25, 2012 @ 4:23 AM Niceness Went to jin's workplace today!!!!! So fun Eve and Debra they all haha. Eve seems nice I hope we become friends. And seriously la, you funny and all, but you have a girlfriend. No way i'm gonna do anything about that. I took the LRT today, forgot how it felt like to sit alone on a moving train. FEELS GOOD!!!! haha cause can think alot when i'm alone on the train. And the sun was setting so KL looked horribly jammed but majestically beautiful. Especially near Bangsar. Such a nice place that Bangsar. Went steamboat with my friends that day in Kepong. Then we went Desapark. That place is haunted with memories of you man. But now that I'm single, I feel like I'm becoming my old self again. Which is good. hehe. -Stardust- -Artie Shaw- back to top?
Thursday, July 19, 2012 @ 8:37 PM And the wind blows So yesterday i was in the hostel park playing my guitar. And it was so nice! And when i played my shaun breakup song the wind blew. Special moment. But I think i'm over the worst part of you. I saw you yesterday and I didn't even feel sad. I think its because since it didn't hurt as much as two years ago, my heart's like 'ahh, peanuts.' But of course i miss you. As a friend, mostly. I wish we could fast forward to the part where we become good friends. So many guys to like! So little time! haha i feel like I'm becoming my old self haha this is bad. And music, I love you so much, I know I will love you for eternity, to eternity, bypassing eternity. I'm very sure about that. Silent night, holy night All is calm, all is bright Round yon Virgin Mother and Child Holy Infant so tender and mild Sleep in heavenly peace Sleep in heavenly peace -Silent Night- -Priscilla Ahn- p.s. I find her so pretty in her own way=D back to top?
Wednesday, July 18, 2012 @ 8:55 AM BRAVE Just watched brave! Now i feel like I should appreciate my mother more. But she makes it so hard sometimes. Haih. Such a nice movie though haha and I was crying at one part and they noticed but they didn't laugh at me haha such nice friends I have. And I did my moral presentation today! Made me feel so good haha cause I feel like it gave me a big step forward in conquering my stage fright. Seriously!! I know I sound very perasan but oh well I might as well write it here to have a pick me up when i'm feeling down in the future. They clapped so loud I couldn't hear myself say thank you! Ngahahahaha so happy. And to think that I used to be so nervous I would shiver and shake on stage. Feels good to set out to conquer something and getting nearer to accomplishing it bit by bit. And I finally bought new guitar strings! And a music stand to replace the one that was stolen along with the car haha. Damn broke now though I have like 3 bucks for food a day now till the end of the month. BUT MY STOMACH SHALL PERSEVERE!!! Hehe. Demonic laugh. And the guy who sold me the strings kinda cute haha classic me. Liking every musician I meet. I had a moment in the cinema. When i wished that you were here. Because it would have been fun. And it would have been nice to cry into your shoulder=( Why did we end? Sometimes I wonder. But it feels set in my heart that you're not the one. For now. Maybe forever. So I’ll find another tree And make the wind my friend I’ll just sing with the birds They’ll tell me secrets off the world But my other honey bee Stuck where he doesn’t wanna be Oh my darling honey bee I’ll come save you Even if it means I’ll have to face the queen -Zee Avi- -Honey Bee- back to top?
Monday, July 16, 2012 @ 7:13 AM Paint me like one of your french girls Went paintball yesterday!!!!! Damn sick now haha and i got 7 bruises in total. Referee was cute though. Quite fun but I'll stick to lasertag next time. Got a bruise on my neck that looks like god himself gave me a lovebite. On another note. We texted today. I actually feel quite unaffected. But on the other hand if i feel sentimental I'll surely feel sad. But i'm forcing myself not to be sentimental and since i'm so busy it's not that much of an effort, oh well. Drizzled on the way home today. Looked so pretty whenever I passed under a light ngahaha. Oh and when i was paintballing I realised that the columns looked like the ones in Coldplay's 'Every teardrop is a waterfall'. Yes no? Made me feel so happy! Now if only they would come to Malaysia. Would die in peace haha. So you can hurt, hurt me bad But still I'll raise the flag - Every Teardrop is a Waterfall - -Coldplay- back to top?
Saturday, July 14, 2012 @ 9:42 AM sadness everywhere we have ended, and i am sad. i miss everything. i miss you. but the thought that you might not be the one made me scared. made me tear at the membrane that enveloped us. well i guess a struggled hard enough. now i've lost you. and it makes me feel like i've lost other stuff too. but even with this sadness that i carry in my heavy, heavy heart. i hope that you are fine too. and if its meant to be we'll be together, if its not, we'll just find someone better. you'll always be special in my heart. love you, and goodbye lamb chop. love, porkie. back to top?
Monday, May 16, 2011 @ 7:28 PM hi, so its your birthday today. and i cried yesterday, yes, i did, even though i know i said i didn't. i feel like sometimes we drift. and its painful. i don't know if its because of distance, or because we're both busy almost all the time. but it can't be normal, can it? i mean, we only ever meet up at nights because that's the only time when we're free, and when we do meet, we're so tired we don't have the energy to actually communicate. even though its nice, just talking crap with you. but communicating is necessary, if we want to progress, and i want to progress. so i cried last night, because i felt like we have not progressed for a long time. and i know you're busy, severely. you don't even have time for your own birthday. but i thought you would have made time, but you didn't i guess you don't know how to do that. but i don't want to be angry and hurt anymore. because even when i'm crying and my heart bursts through my chest, swimming, in that sea, of sadness, is always hope. and she is strong. and i have lost too many things in life that i love. i don't want to lose you. so i swim, i don't sink. What if I got it wrong And no poem or song Could put right what I got wrong Or make you feel I belong -coldplay- -what if?- back to top?
Tuesday, April 12, 2011 @ 9:37 AM i melted today so, today, he said. but i can't fall asleep without you. well darling, i can't fall asleep without you either=) together can never be close enough for me, to feel like i am close enough to you, you'll wear white and i'll wear out the words i love you, and you're beautiful. -Train- ~Marry Me~ and somehow, i can't make colours appear in my words anymore back to top?

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All is calm, all is bright
Round yon Virgin Mother and Child
Holy Infant so tender and mild
Sleep in heavenly peace
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